Healing from Sisterhood Trauma with Sexuality…

As I journey on through self healing and development I have always come to the same block, the trauma and experience of Sisterhood bullying and harassment.

Being ridiculed and harassed by women, and women who I thought I could rely and trust upon,  really shaped me into disbelieving in myself, so much so that I found life just unbearable. 

The bullying and harassment stopped me from using my voice, from being seen, from doing the things I loved and from having my own business. 

I did not realise how much this trauma affected my sexuality. Not only feeling a huge loss of trust in others but in myself as well, I just didn’t want to get close to anybody. 

The feelings of unworthiness affected how I showed up in every area of my life and in every relationship. I felt unworthy of friendship, romantic relationship, working relationships and so this impacted me hugely in expression of self so I showed up in sensual play very different to my truth, and to how I wanted to express myself and how I wanted this sacred act of pleasure to feel. 

The harassment continued for well over a decade which left my nervous system in a state of constant fear, this made me insecure and left me so unsure on how to be intimate in friendship, which in turn gave me undesirable behaviors…I desperately needed to find my true essence. 

As I began to work hard on healing I found I was triggered every single time I wanted to celebrate something I was proud of, I got flashbacks of the words used by these women and I got memories of terrible times flooding back. 

Doing some deep work using Tantra and Taoism has restored me to be able to express myself in a healthy way, I'm no longer numb from intimacy and find myself engaging in life moment to moment.

I used sexual pleasure to help liberate emotions and feelings to flood my nervous system with cosmic delightful energy and lift limiting stories and beliefs removing past wounds.

Finding my sexuality has meant that I am able to express myself so wholeheartedly and I feel so unashamed for doing so, now, I’m not talking about expression just in the bedroom, although this is great, I’m talking about intimacy with myself and how I see my own pleasure, desires and goals in life. If I’m able to hold this container for myself and be intimate with myself I know then, how to allow someone to join me in this.

Uncovering these parts of me that I thought were embarrassing and unworthy of any attention has left me radiant, alive, thriving and with an unapologetic expression of self to bring into everything that I do.

I am no longer numb, I feel my body, I feel what it wants, I ask it and I have beautiful orgasmic joy, with all of that I have the most beautiful intimate and close friendships.  

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So much love!!