Do We Celebrate Ourselves Enough?

Some people may see it as bragging, showing off or boasting but there really is something so deeply healing in celebrating with humility. For me personally, gone are the days of a glass of bubbles or perhaps something else to celebrate any “achievements”, of course back then any excuse was plausible and on the table come wind, rain or shine.

What I know today is that I didn’t truly know how to celebrate without numbing myself, it was just an event that occurred, that glass would turn into more glasses and inevitably the celebration would be ruined by me because I felt so unworthy of having that experience.

What happens now? I picked up my phone and messaged a beautiful mentor and friend, “I want burger and chips” I proclaimed, the food thing has been a pattern for me, “How will that make you feel?” was her response. Instead of answering the question I listed all the reasons why I deserved it.

Then I sat and felt my connected in to the Divine, did a clearing and deleted the list. “I want to eat it to celebrate my achievements but I know I’ll feel awful once I’ve eaten it”. See my belief told me that I’m not worthy of celebrating myself or of being excited about achievements, dreams and aspirations, my experience has shown me that I will immediately ransack anything that could make me happy by pure self sabotage in a concoction of high ego and low self esteem. Maybe that sounds familiar to you?

So here I am celebrating:

1 - the awareness to know, reach out and provide myself some self love in order to move forward.

2 - I actually want to celebrate that I recently embarked on showing up for myself to finally remedy my forever time travelling head of living in trauma from the past…and…I…FEEL…SENSATIONAL!!!

I never did buy the burger and chips, in fact I went to the gym and gave my body some movement followed by a sweeeeeet massage. My practice isn’t perfect, yet it’s a practice and will get stronger so everyday I must announce that I am worthy!

So here’s to you beautiful people, how do you celebrate you and are you doing it enough? FOR YOU ARE WORTHY!